Why Is This Heartbreak Different? (Album)Latest
Shortly after finishing and uploading my previous single, I still felt unrest. It was in that same evening and the following day in which I composed six more songs, one of which had lyrics, which I created through a combination of Vocaloid and several modulation tools. Through its completion and release, I felt I could finally let sleeping dogs lie. To me, Why Does This Heartbreak Feel Different is a story of grief in multiple different dimensions happening simultaneously. Long pauses of silence between songs as if gasping for air in the midst of drowning, with too few moments of rest.
Did You Mean What You Said? (Single)
A resurgence of profuse sadness as life's shortcomings continue to collapse my already broken shelter. My mind had been fixated on several phrases that left me feeling betrayed, hopeless, and lost. The sound of reverberance was recorded at my desk. I sat, voice gone, as I took a deep breathe and sang a soft melody. I felt I needed to be heard one last time, and then never again.
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I've Been Here Before (Album)
Existentialism continued to loom over me as feelings of dread filled every waking moment. This constant cyclical thought pattern would always lead back to nothing truly mattering if in time, all that would be left was dust. And finally came comfort and solace understanding what was most important to me. Initially, I was so fixated on my legacy and what if any impact I would have on the world. I would later recognize that so long as I loved as best I could, be as kind as I could, and do as much good as I could, that was all that mattered. And I have done just that, to which I feel contentedness. However, it does not change the fact that different aspects of existentialism continue to surround my mind, and thus I remind myself, "I learned something about myself, and I am sure I will learn it again."
Guide Me, Help Me (Album)
During this time, I was at a very low point in my life (though there have been many low points reflecting back). I felt lost, and nowhere near where I wanted to be in my life. But at the same time, regardless of how much I would or could have accomplished, I am certain I would never have reached that impossible goal post. I was desparate and afraid of the world as it felt like it was attempting to swallow me and my soul whole. And so I decided I needed to create something, from start to finish in its entirety, regardless of the perfectionist tendencies. It was around this time that I was finally able to let go.
Tape Side: Se (Single)
I began using the name "Seo" near the end of high school as my online alias. Its origin maybe told another time, but for my music, conceptually I had an idea that tied in with my existentialism. All returns to dust, and yet we continue to advance as best we can. Technologies created that seem almost impossible. And I wanted to represent that somehow through my music. On one end, the "classic" instruments we all know such as piano and guitar, and on the other, a range of synths and computer-generated signals that create a multitude of sounds from sine, saw, square waves. And so, here we have the beginning.